Disappointed

Well, they did Mason's car seat test this evening. He didn't pass :( he turned blue after 45 minutes. They typically won't do the test again for 72 hrs (maybe we could convince them to try it again after 48 hours which would be Christmas Eve, but I doubt it). Anyways, so Mason probably won't be home for Christmas. We knew this was very likely, but I just got my hopes up when they decided to do the test. Oh well, he doesn't care, it is just me. I know I will just feel so guilty/torn on christmas wanting to spend time with all of my family at once. 

Thomas was supposed to take the car seat test tonight also, but when Mason failed, the nurses decided to hold off on his test and see what the dr suggests in the morning. He tends to set the alarms off on his monitor more frequently than his brothers... But I think it is cuz he likes to hold his breath a lot when he stretches. But there is a chance he may not pass either.

Anyways, I am disappointed but rich keeps pointing out to me that we just want them to be safe and healthy. And they are all so healthy! We have been so blessed with getting them here safely, it shouldn't matter if they don't get to come home for a few more days. I guess I am just getting a little worn out having to split my time at home and the hospital, and I now feel well enough to want them home. I really want to get them on the same schedule and start life. It just isn't plausible when they at in the hospital as one nurse can't feed all 3 at the same time -and she doesn't want them all on the same schedule because a it is harder for her. So we will hang on for a few more days and hope that they can all be home by the end of the week.